Don’t suppress your feelings. At least not to your self. You’re allowed to feel vulnerable, sad and confused. You need to know how you feel. Don’t tell yourself you’re fine when you know how badly hurt or miserable you are. You need to be honest with yourself, only then you’ll be able to figure out how to fix yourself.
Your father subdues any effort
your mother tries to make to keep you alive.
He’s a typical dominating male
from a narrow- minded patriarchal family.
He won’t let you live.
But you aren’t even born yet.
You think you’re safe
inside your mother’s thick belly.
Your mother knows you’re not.
He won’t let you step out into this world.
Because he’s not what you expected.
You’re not the one he desires.
He won’t tolerate you for 9 long months.
Because he wants a boy.
And that’s where everything changes.
Light a candle on the grave of our love,
sit there and weep a little.
And while you weep
beg the universe to forgive you,
for you had broken a heart and
remember while you curse yourself
that forgiveness ain’t cheap.
She was too clumsy for his perfect existence.
So she packed her bag and for a change,
set out to see the world from her own perspective,
the one that probably never existed before.
How many times will you let him in?
How many times will you mourn?
How many times till it breaks you apart
It’s your body. It’s not his home, it’s yours
Don’t let him in
It’s time to shut the doors.
He had no intention of staying
yet you took ‘no’ as his ‘yes’.
His rejection as his approval
his empty lies as his promises.
His lust as his love
his want as his need.
Because all this time
you weren’t concerned about him
or about what he wanted or
what he was doing to you.
You were concerned about yourself
about what you wanted.
Because you needed him
or maybe you just wanted someone.
You were being selfish
you were thinking about yourself.
Because you were too afraid to be alone.
So how can you blame him
for something, you did to yourself.
How can you blame him for breaking your heart
when you are the reason for your misery
This time, you won’t get the chance to play the victim like you always have.