You have that effect on me. It just doesn’t go away. I see you and my heart starts sinking like it is inevitable, my stomach starts churning and my lungs start to squeeze. I can barely breathe. My whole body starts trembling and I can’t get words out of my mouth. You still have that effect on me and I wonder if it’ll ever go away. Because it kills me to look at you. It kills me when I look into those eyes. It reminds me of those days spent together. The tragedy is not that we fell apart because maybe we were never meant for each other. The tragedy was the way we fell apart after all the love I gave you. Because I loved you with all that I had every second every minute every day every single moment I sacrificed myself for you. For your love. In your love. The tragedy was the way we became nothing after I treated you as my everything. The tragedy was that even though I knew what you were still I went through so much for you. The tragedy was that my heart blinded my vision of the real you and let me believe your sugar coated poisonous words. The tragedy was that all along I knew you were not right for me yet I was stupid enough to let you destroy me. The tragedy was that I loved you. The greatest tragedy is that I can never stop loving you and it is destroying me every second. Every second of my existence. After all that you put me through I still can’t stop myself from loving you. See, you still have that effect on me. It’s like you still control me. The greatest tragedy is that even after all that you put me through I still love you and all that you took away from me is gone. I can’t feel anything. I’m numb. The tragedy is that I would never be able to love anyone the way I loved you because you just don’t leave. Your love just doesn’t leave. This definitely is the biggest tragedy that you never loved me. It was never us. It was just me all along, standing all alone, driving myself crazy while loving you so passionately. I would never be the same again. I would never be able to give all that you took from me. All the love, care, emotions and feelings and that is the tragedy.